Do I Believe? Final Entry: The Great Adventure!

Hello To All:

When I returned from Haiti, I was filled with the wonder and awe of all that Jesus Christ had done. My life was changed. The next year was spent, in trying to understand that change; and the implications of that change. Curiously, I found, that there were very few, out of those who I had opportunity to speak with, who really wanted to understand the reasons for the change. I would have conversations, with individuals and groups, regarding the miraculous works of Jesus Christ, in Haiti; and, to my puzzlement, there was almost no interest, in a deeper understanding, of these wondrous things, that Jesus Christ had done. When talking to individuals, the subject would, most often, be changed, often very quickly, and always by the person that I was speaking with.

I cannot say, with any certainty, why any given individual, chose to not want to talk about the miraculous; but, I am compelled to consider the possibility, that the oppression of unbelief, is so extensive, that it is too difficult for us to consider the possibility, that Jesus Christ would do the works today, that we find recorded in His Book. Thus, in order to protect our own status quo, we must change the subject. To continue, the conversation, may present too great a challenge, to the status quo, that we have decided to embrace. It is too difficult, for us to consider the possibility, that we might not believe.

This is not meant to be harsh; and if, to some of you, it seems harsh, then consider this: I make no apologies for saying and doing the things that are necessary, in order that, all of us, would come, to more fully know Jesus Christ; and that all of us, might come to be more deeply aware of our union with Him. Thus, in the increasing knowledge of Jesus Christ; and in the increasing awareness, of our union with Him; all of us, can be more fully used, by Him, in the great works, that He continues to do, in His creation and amongst His people.

Another thing that happened, not long after my return, was that I stopped writing. I wrote about Haiti (those blogs were written in April and June of 2010); and then, there was nothing more to write. I was empty. There was nothing more to say! It was, as if, God had given me leave, to search for the person, that I was in Haiti. Thus, with the guidance and companionship of Jesus Christ, we continued our journey, towards the great adventure, that Christ had prepared for me.

During that year (the end of May 2010 to the end of May 2011), I was trying, and sometimes desperately trying, to understand the difference, between who I was in Haiti, and who I was, now, back in America. While still in Haiti, I asked God what I should say to people when they asked why the works that I saw in Haiti, were not being seen in America? After returning to America, I asked a similar question (see post of 6/17/10 titled: Haiti: Unbelief and Discipleship). God's immediate response was: "Tell them about unbelief." What I had not recognized, upon my return to America, was that unbelief, had swept back into my life; and the bondage, that I had left behind, when I traveled to Haiti, was, once again, holding me captive.

This would be a good place to stop, for now; so, until next time, my beloved brethren, in Christ Jesus, I continue to be:

Your servant and your fellow pilgrim,
Elder Theophilus